Red and gray

I loose my doubtful self control
Can't catch a breath anymore
You still keep on killing me
I scream aloud without a sound

One peaceful day could save my life
Or should I cut off the last line
It feels like you pull off my spine
And why do I stumble all the time

Why do I feel so fucking cold?
Why don't I ever make you bored?
Why do I need you all the time?
Why do I hate you somehow?

I slip away and suffocate
My body burns, my soul dies
I need a calm, a dead silence
Get your hands off of my life!!!

I turn away, you turn me back
You look inside my moist eyes
You crudle my blood, you bite my neck!
Get your hands off of my life!!!

Why do I feel so fucking cold?
Why don't I ever make you bored?
Why do I need you all the time?
Why do I hate you somehow?