In My Head

Staring into a ceiling
Thirsty for some feeling
Here comes the pain
And depression again
(Am I insane?)

What is upside down?
This world or me?
I’m begging you
To set me free

So many bad memories
Deep inside my head
I don’t wanna have them here
In my head

A lot of happiness
Around me
And so much prettiness
To see
But I can’t give a smile
Oh why?
When everyone is happy
Why can’t I?

I need to fill
The empty place in me
My mind is locked
And you hold a key

So many bad memories
Deep inside my head
I don’t wanna have them here
In my head

A lot of happiness
Around me
And so much prettiness
To see
But I can’t give a smile
Oh why?
When everyone is happy
Why can’t I?

A lot of feelings to give
But no feelings to receive
Do I belong in this world?
Who the hell am I? Hidden behind a smile
What the hell is wrong with me?
I’m lost inside my mind
I have no one to die for
Time flows like a sand between my fingers

A lot of happiness
Around me
And so much prettiness
To see
But I can’t give a smile
Oh why?
When everyone is happy
Why can’t I?

Happiness around me
Prettiness to see
Can’t give a smile
Everyone is happy
Why can’t I?