I dont trust myself

No I'm not the girl I used to be lately
See you met me at an interesting time
If my past is any sign of your future
You should be warned before I let you inside

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
'Cause I don't trust myself with loving you

I will beg my way into your garden
I will let myself out when it rains
Just to get back to the place where I started
So I can want you back all over again

I don't really understand

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
'Cause I don't trust myself with loving you
'Cause I don't trust myself with loving you