Sorry for Now

I was cold
I was lying on my side
In my hold
Were the ropes that I had tied
But I couldn’t move or make a sound
My fear had pinned me to the ground
And in my chest a scream rose from inside

This isn’t fate
This can’t be real
It isn’t fair that this is my end of the deal

Sorry but I have to go
You never know what you think you know
Every time I try to speak
The truth just floats away
And if I wasted all your time
I’m sorry for the pain I left behind
Maybe now peace you will find
So come in from the rain

You were there
And you watched my sacrifice
Like a fool
I tossed away my life
Is it fair to act so far away
And walk around like nothings changed
Now in my soul the darkness turns to light

This isn’t fate
This can’t be real
It isn’t fair that this is my end of the deal

Sorry but I have to go
You never know what you think you know
Every time I try to speak
The truth just floats away
And if I wasted all your time
I’m sorry for the pain I left behind
Maybe now peace you will find
So come in from the rain

This is not the way I thought it would end for me
Didn’t know I would poison my family tree
Despite my efforts to stop the pain
My arms still can’t hold in the shame
I can’t count all the times I let you down
All the times my lies left me out of bounds
That’s why I
Could never you looked you in the eye
And why I
Could never let you see me cry

So this is what becomes of me
And empty space full of empathy
My legacy of broken glass
Still in a hurry to finish last
I couldn’t carry on that way
So sorry for now and for every day
You got down on your knees and prayed
I wish I could have stayed

Sorry for now