Dear Old Nicki

maybe you died
'cuz everybody ask me
where you at
i try to channel you in hopes that
i could steal you back
but it's like every intersection
we just missed each other
you got your fans waitin'
tell me you ain't six feet under
and tell me that you're coming back
that you just took a break
maybe i blamed you for everything
that was my mistake
in high and sight,
i loved your rawness
and i loved your edge
'cuz it was you who talked me down
from jumping off the ledge
your earrings bamboo
your long nails too
your bmw
everytime you came through
you was the brave heart
you stole wayne heart
you never switched it up
you played that same part
but i needed to grow
and i needed to know
but there's some things inside of me
that i needed to show
so i just deaded you
left you in all black
but dear old nicki,
please call back

(Chorus)
you told me you'd come
when i needed you
and you said it so sweetly
i believed you
but i'm standing here calling
i cant see you
but i am holding you,
holding you,
holding you to that

yo, did i chase the glitz and glamor,
money, fame, and power?
'cuz if so, that will forever go down
my lamest hour
i should've kept you with me
getting at the nameless cowards
they was no match for you,
couldn't defeat your powers
i had to make them changes,
i hope you understood

you see for every bad,
i did a ton of good
but you was underground,
and i was mainstream
i live the life now
that we would daydream
my only wish is
you come enjoy it with me
get on them conference calls
go meet the lawyers with me
the money came, yeah
i tripled and quadrupled it
but i just miss us
when we were on some stupid shit
and it's still fuck the media
they ridiculed you,
never believed in ya
they just deaded you
left you in all black
dear old nicki,
please call back

(Chorus)
you told me you'd come
when i needed you
and you said it so sweetly
I believe you
but i'm standing here calling
i cant see you
but i am holding you,
holding you,
holding you to that

yes, i'm holding you,
holding you,
holding you
yes, i'm holding you,
holding you,
holding you
yes, i'm holding you,
holding you,
holding you to that

yes, i'm holding you,
holding you,
holding you
yes, i'm holding you,
holding you,
holding you
yes, i'm holding you,
holding you,
holding you to that