Confused

I've been through so many changes I don't know which way to go
Yet I've got it so together I can see with my eyes open or with my eyes
closed
Late at night I cry and wonder why my life's goin', goin' nowhere
But during the day everything is okay, I'm having it my way, I say
My teachers tell me that I am a lost soul, in a black hole
But my mind, it tells me that I'm doing just fine
Oh if everything is peachy, why can't anybody reach me
I've always said I don't need anybody else
Chorus:
I'm so confused
So confused
And I'm destined to lose
Unless I follow another way
Spent all my time lookin' for something never knew what for
Tried out all the options just to find that more pain and hurt was in store
Been through it all, but the one thing that I still run from is you
Still I remember 'bout all the things my momma said that you could do
She said that if I only let you in my life
You could take away the sorrow and the emptiness inside
But to be true, the life I'm living, it's hard to let it go
Though I've spent my whole life learning, there's so much that I don't know
(chorus x2)
I hear you calling, telling me to leave it all behind
If I could only find the answers to the questions in my mind
I wonder could it be my mind's not meant to understand
Maybe I should go with my heart and put my life in your hands
Surrender to you
(chorus out)