Innocence

I wanna disappear
I just sleep all day
The spots on my hands
My skin just like sand
The air so cold, I shutter and I can't sing

Carpet on my feet, sweat stains on the sheets
Cough, syrup and drugs, bandages and gods
Razors dull, water cold against my skin
Radio loud, ecstatic, buzzing around like a tin

And all these empty plans, ink stains on my hands
And everyone says the best words for the gray
Of these weary morning tones
I probably saved mine too
If heaven's just a long road home
Tell me it's true, I'll come too
I'll come too, I'll come too...

I lost my innocence today
I could feel her in my bones
My bones, my bones, my bones
My blood, my blood, my blood, my blood

And I woke up, tired, scared and sad
Soaked, drained, I felt so bad
Today, today, today
What you still, you still, you still, you still
Won't you say, you say, you say, you say
What you feel, you feel, you feel, you feel
Which is nothing but hollow feelings, yeah
I can, done, I just don't care

And forget happiness, I'm fine
I'll forget everything in time
I swear I didn't know,
You know me, how I can't let go
And we're not guts, we're just hacks
All that life got lose the cracks
The scars, the scene that breaks
The ugly teens, the worst mistakes
And everywhere I see her face
Such a beautiful child, such an awful waste
And there's no innocence like hers
Just emptiness and nerves

And this light from the window of my car
She'll never see it, oh my God
I was so surprised, it blew up in my face
Lord, I lost my nerve, oh my God
Oh my God, oh my... God
And I tear, I tear, so hard
And I tear, I tear, so hard
And I beg and scream, "I was wrong"
It's over, she's gone