In My Absence

Eyes that meet to say farewell
And linger through the sleepless nights
A trail of days that end in tears
But I can never be there

The rush of hours that never seem to end
What life has dealt, you cannot comprehend
I am the absentee

I know you're out there searching tonight
I'm right here
Another day and I cannot see through your eyes
I'm right here

How could I have known
What preceded your own thoughts
Wish that I could listen
To what only speaks inside

Every raging dissonance
Each jarring note
But I could never be there

How can you think
That I would understand
When words just go around
What the heart truly wants
I am the absentee

I know you're out there searching tonight
I'm right here
Another day and I cannot see through your eyes
I'm right here

I want to tell you
Of the exploding light
How everything is visible
Moments before the dark

I am never, never there

I know you're out there searching tonight
Another day and I'm not there

Thrust with nails of conflict, anxiety and pain
Through spells of anger, confusion and defeat
I wish I'd see me here in front of you
But I am not here

I know you're out there searching tonight
I'm right here
Another day and I cannot see though your eyes

I know you're out there
But I'm right here
Another day and I cannot see though your eyes
Lead me right