Deja vu

DMC we have a mid-thirties male found down..unresponsive...possible overdose...substance unknown...pulse is sixty-and-thready...respiration is eight, he's intobated and we're baggin' him now...uh, BP is ninety over palp patient is cool, pale, and diuretic...exasperated...Uh, GSC is three, we'll update en route--ETA ten minutes...

As i fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then i salivate . Start off with the NyQuil think I'll just have a taste
Couple of sips of that then i gradually graduate
To a harder prescription drug called valium like yea that's great
I go to take just take one and i end up like having eight
Now i need something in my stomach cause i haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and i'll have a steak
And you'd think that with all i have at stake
Look at my daughters face....
Mommy somethings is wrong with dad i think
He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me
Wont shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
And all he does is eat dorritos and cheetos
And he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat

Chorus
Sometimes i feel so alone,
I just dont know , it feels like i been down this road before,
So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me,
as soon as i go home and close the door,
kinda feels like déj? vu, I wanna get away from this place i do,
But i cant and i wont say i try but i know thats a lie cause i dont
and why i just dont know.....

Maybe just an ice cold brew what's a beer
Thats the devil in my ear i been sober a fuckin year
And that fucker still talks to me he is all i can fuckin hear
Marshall come on we'll watch the game it's the cowboys and buccaneers
And maybe if i just drink half i'll be half buzzed for half the time
Whose the mastermind behind that little line
With that kind of rational man i got half a mind
To have another half a glass of wine sound asinine
Yeah i know
But i never had no problem with alcohol
Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch im about to fall
I missed the couch and down i go looking like a bouncy ball
Shit musta knocked me out cause i aint feel the ground at all
Wow what the fuck happened last night where am i
Man fuck am i hung over and god damn i got a headache
Shit half a vicodin why cant i ?
" All systems ready for take off please stand by "

Chorus
Sometimes i feel so alone,
I just dont know ,feels like i been down this road before,
So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me,
Soon as i go home and close the door,
kinda feels like déj? vu, I wanna get away from this place i do,
But i cant and i wont say i tried but i know thats a lie cuz i dont
and why i just dont know.....

So i take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach then-ahhh
A couple weeks go by it aint even like im getting high
now i need it just not feel sick yeah im getting by
Wouldn't even be taking this shit if Deshaun didn't die
Oh yeah theres an excuse you lose proof so you use
There's new rules it's cool if it's helpin you to get through
It's twelve noon aint no harm in self inducing a snooze
What else is new fuck it what would elvis do in your shoes
now here i am 3 months later full blown relapse
Just get high untill the kids get home from two homes relax
And since im convinced that im an insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep so i take 3 naps
Just to be able to function throughout the day lets see
That's an ambian each nap how many valium 3
And that will average out to about one good hours sleep
Ok so now you see the reason how come he
Has taken 4 years to put out an album b
See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath
Cuz that christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing
It was bologna was it the methadone ya think
Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos
your vcr tape cases with you ambian cr great places to hide aint it
So you can lie to hailie im going beddy bye whitney baby good night alaina
Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in an ambulance
They said they found me on the bathroom floor damn...

Chorus
Sometimes i feel so alone,
I just dont know ,feels like i been down this road before,
So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me,
Soon as i go home and close the door,
kinda feels like déj? vu, I wanna get away from this place i do,
But i cant and i wont say i tried but i know thats a lie cuz i dont
and why i just dont know.....