No Say

I never wanted this
Grow up
Become what they call a man
Choose and decide
So I started out playing games with both
Me and them
'Cause everyone's due to keep up with the others
Due to find a part to play
Within that huge comedy or drama
Whatever
I've played them all
For years
But all of a sudden
Everything changed
And I began to fall
The hard and endless fall
Of someone who had the pleasure
To meet self-determination's younger brothers
Ehm, let's say self-deception and self-destruction
I got lost after not knowing
After not knowing who I ought to be
I left it all behind
Moved houses
Changed the city
And fell asleep
For one and a half years