Downspeed Heartbeat

I lost myself a thousand times...
Now I succumb to senses blind.
It's all or none.
(No glory in the goal of some
All or none its black or white
(No strength now for shades of grey)
I THIRST! I DREAM!
I BURN! - I SCREAM...
I slow my heartbeat
Indifference holds my sanity
Yet just intoxicated.
By thoughts of Self
(This worldly frame! This cage! This Hell!)
Unknowing Fool I Am
To join its Ranks and spectacle
Open your eyes (Everything lies)