I Want To Live

I've gathered all my lifetime memories of you.
My lusty sentiments they made life seem true.
I'm rather selfish and I mean to be unkind.
You can't imagine what it does to me inside.
But where am I? I want to die.
I want to live. I want to die.
If I were someone I would like to be a fool.
No one would know me and I think that would be cool.
I'd paint a picture of my life upon your wall.
And use the colors that have made life seem small.
But where am I? I want to die.
I want to live. I want to die.
But you've got a way of understanding me.
And I just call it one of your mysteries
But you know that you've got to stay close to me, close to me.
But where am I? I want to die.
But where am I? I want to die.
I want to die.
I want to give.
I want to die.
Die die die die,
die die die die.