Confused

On which side am I?
This one or that one
I'm so messed up
And I can't fuckin' understand
What's going on
I've found myself
Caught in a position - once again
That I'm not sure
If that's the way
That I wanted it to be

And I'm so confused
I was sure we're going
In a special direction
I guess I was wrong again
Can't seem to find an answer
Or salvation

The TV is shut
Yeah, I'm alone again
Thinking of where I was
Where I've been
My walls are white
But i see only black
It can't be you
'Cause I don't think
That your shadow
Is that big

And I'm so confused
I was sure we're going
In a special direction
I guess I was wrong again
Can't seem to find an answer
Or salvation

Sometimes it feels so weird
And I don't know what to decide
This side or this side
My mind is so messed up
Can I manage on my own?
Or do I need you by my side
To help me clear my doubts
And to find my way out