Not the girl I used to be

Wondering
Have I given up dreaming?
Come down from ceiling
I won’t do that again
Thinking
My misspent history
Mistakes to teach me
I won’t do that again

Dreams I kept as a child
Kept me quiet and hypnotised
Cooked away my valentines
Served myself up every night
Couldn’t see me for the trees
And all that hallmark poetry
I’m not the girl, I used to be

Wondering
Have I given up dreaming?
Come down from ceiling
I won’t do that again
Thinking
My misspent history
Mistakes to teach me
I won’t do that again

Trying to break the family ties
Chocolate hearts and tacky lies
Heard a thousand crappy lines
And I believed them every time
So I beg to disagree
Love’s not taking all of me
I’m not the girl I used to be