The Downward Spiral

Mother Dear Mother
It's Cold Tonight
Like Every Other
Every Other Night
But I Never Feel
Feel It Anyway
I'm Gonna Need Something
Something Soon
I Can Feel It
Feel It Begin
But I Don't Know
How I'm Gonna Pay
It Must Be About
Mid December Right Now
And I Think I'm About
Seventeen
I'm Not Real Sure
How Old I Feel
I Lost My Thoughts
In Some Dream
Oh Mother I Don't
Know How
I Got Where I Am
But I'll Try To Explain Anyhow

See Gradually
You Get Sucked In
Into It
Without Ever Really
Realising
Just What's Happening
And That Is When
The Downward Spiral Begins

Anyway Back To How It All Started
It Started With Dope
Why Not After All It Was Just The Once, I Told Myself
I Didn't Even Like It Very Much
But The People I Was With All Did It
Then I Tried Speed
Why Not After All, It Was Just The Once I Told Myself
The Next Thing I Knew I Was Doing A Couple Of Grams A week
Then A Friend Introduced Me To Smack- Chasing The Dragon
Why Not After All It Was Just The Once I Told Myself
Why Not After All It Wasn't using A Needle
Then I Started Doing What I Said I'd Never Do
- You Guessed It Mother

I Remember
All The Marks It Left Up My Arm
Just Trying To Find My Vein
Sometimes It Would Hurt Hurt So Much
But I Kept On Going
Ignoring Ignoring The Pain

As I Sat
With Blood Pouring Down
My Nose And
Nose And Throat
I Lost Contact
Contact
Contact With The Real
Real Real Me

I Wasn't As Careful
As I Should Have Been
And Soon It Began To Show
I Started To Feel
Tired And Very Sick
And I Watched My Eyes
Eyes Turn Yellow
It Was Just About Then
That I Parted With Drugs
And Just Had A Drink Now And Then
But Even Before
I Was over Hep
I Had My Friend
In My Arm Again

I Met Up With A Girl A While Ago
She Was Living The Same Life
Lost In The Same Dream
We Shared A Room In The City
Though You Couldn't Really Call It Home
Well It Seemed As Though
Drugs just Destroyed Her Will To Live
She Always Had A Smile For Me Though
Even When She Was Filled With Pain

I Remember That Grey Day
She Lay Still On The Floor
Needle Still In Her Arm
Eyes Staring At The Wall
The Tears Didn't Come Right Then
I Don't Know If They Ever Came
But Something In Me Died Back Then And I Know
It'll Never Be The Same
It Seems Like Years Ago
But I think It Was Only Yesterday
The Picture's Still Locked In My Mind And I Know
It Will Always Stay It Will Always Stay

After Reading This
This To Myself
I Know I Know
You'll Be Filled With Pain
So Please Please
Keep My Memory
Close To Your Heart
And Your Love Love
Love For me The Same

Cause At This Stage
I Need Need Your
Friendship More Than Pity
Friendship
Friendship More Than Pity
Friendship
Friendship More Than Pity
Friendship
More Than More Than Pity

And Maybe Just Now
I Can Tell You The Reason
For All These Drugs
These Drugs I'm Taking
For Although I'm
So Scared Of Dying
I'm Terrified
Terrified Of Living