Internal Darkness

Sunshine
I wait for dawns recurrent light
I ponder in my narrow house and warm myself
Moonlight
Calmly shines through the night
I stare at these old phptgraphs
My heart beats fast
I find no peace to read or write
My soul is lost
My spirit's down
There's no one in the dark
My little world has lost it's light

The dim serene
I can't escape at all and my thoughts reveal
I can't forget the better days behind closed doors
I'm still confused and longing for

Behind this lowered window blinds
I'm holding back my tears and find
I think I shall never know
why I'm like this and you are so

We all know,
wahat happened through the years
where dreams lie still
I tried to change it all and found dreams lie dead
I can't redo it all again